I was remembering yesterday how from the beginning I've been dealing with their never ending silence. That is, at least directly they're not "bold" enough to share with me what they say to the circle of idols and their circle of fans, because since they're not engaged in the fight for Her, they know they don't stand a chance. But I wonder how many "You blah blah blah" lines in those lyrics out there I have already been responsible for so far. You see? I help them create useless art and make some money. In fact, I almost helped a rock band become popular; they almost had it "all", becoming the "richest" rock band in the world. That's why I'm here, to be used and abused, so that one idol can give another idol a hand to find "inspiration", and in turn receive some help to grow his fan base. Neither I nor the Gift exist; the really cool combination of movies with music is actually brought into being by means of a big bang. So we don't need credit, you may use us freely to get what you want.
Why did I bother to warn the extremely proud girl to stay alert? For her kind of people, it's an useless advice. And since I used to think I was being humble by thinking, "Just because she doesn't want to talk to me, it doesn't mean she doesn't want to talk to Him, right?", I kept watching her to see if she'd share some wisdom publicly. You know the one hundred years feeling I talked about? So, it's how long I felt it would take for her to write anything that matters. And when I saw a smile that looked more like a sadistic one, I understood why all along I couldn't help thinking, "Poor husband, it's as if he doesn't exist, she must be extremely cold". Then she divorced and went to live in Los Angeles. Maybe she thought that would fix the broken LINK? Or maybe she was just following her cold heart and indulging the "dream", wasting her time thinking about that bullshit "future" of "famous" people who, in case of contacting her, she would never leave unanswered.
To be unable to write a single line of Wisdom, after almost fifteen years, to me that's the definition of failure. Nevertheless, it's just a different perspective, so she doesn't have to worry and think it's time to quit the "game", because She's not needed to be idolized and achieve "success"; there's still "hope" for her in the system. She can read and listen to those rock 'n' roll lyrics that belong in, to the wicked machine, and pay attention to how hard and unsensitive she likes it. If she can tune in to that frequency, and show the nerdmobile what she wants to see from her, she can give her any "man" she wants and every obsessed individual under her control. From what I've seen, a malicious smile is a good beginning, she finds it very "charming". Wanting death and hell to her enemies, and expressing that, may also get her "self" promoted in the "partnership". The fallen just need to give not up the love of falsehood and persist to have a chance of reaching the brasstop and getting a blank check to withdraw any amount of disgraceful things to say.
